Anyway, today was a pretty normal day unlike no others. Even though it marked my full 17 years of life so far, it hasn't any positive impact on me, yet. Haha. Funny :S 

So, got asked out with my band of buddies, Shawn, Murphy, Maurice, Woo Tha & Glenden for a must-have celebrations at Swensen's in Junction 8, Bishan. Well, to be honest, haha, I went for the sake of my friends, don't want them to all to be acquainted with my friend disappointment anytime too soon on such a happy event. So in the end, had quite a feast at the restaurant, ate pizzas, the typical Fish'N'Chips and some dipper fries. Was pretty awesome, having friends to remember it, to want to celebrate it with me. I was pretty much cheered up, but still, the climax came when I saw a certain text pop-up full of birthday wishes. Was really awesome, that's the 1/??????? percent when my hopes actually paid off, and it was during that particular moment; the others were busy chattering away about their Heroes of Newerth strategic gameplay, so I took the chance to quietly grin over and over again at the very text. ;) Finally felt one genuine smile form on my lips, even so, I tried to initiate the conversation.. and (I already told you it's 1/??????? chances that my hopes will pay off, so it's kinda typical) as per usual, you ended it in a nice and polite way, and I didn't want to probe you too much, in case you got irritated. Many a time, I wonder, what is it that prevents me from flaring up at you and shooting you non-stop with the so-many-questions-buzzing-around-in-my-head, I guess I can only feel it, not unravel it. 

Why am I so pathetic, having to even think about your feelings every time that I unwittingly neglected my own?

Haisz, it's really sad now that I think back about it, because I just received a terrible shock; Wei Jie told me he actually asked you to come out and join me in my celebrations. -.- Omfg.. Once again, a million questions pop up. G_G I wonder how much thoughts and questions can the human brain handle before it fails to function? 

Anyway, are you getting back with Oliver now? It seems so you know, haisz, your post "its funny when you smile at your phone because the person that you always want to talk to texted you first~"

and your likes on his bloody crap thing. -.- Idk why I'm so fucking paranoid. So fucking upset over this kind of minor details. Zzzzzzz. Seriously. -.- If you wanna move on, can you like please inform me beforehand so I can sort out my fucked-up thoughts?